Hopeless

Hopeless

This poem is about hopelessness, and yet seeing that there is a way out.

I spent my days dreaming of darkness
stricken down, with nothing else left
without you I am nothing
yet the waters run dry
you left me so I could be free
but nothing chains me more strongly
than the thought of you and days gone by
I live as if it was already over
that is not healthy in any sense of the word
I become nothing
or that’s what I keep thinking
as the stars are my witnesses
I will prevail or perish in trying
I am all right

no
I am full of hatred

yes
I am hopeless

maybe
I can rise up

I will
let go of it

I want to tear down the walls
and watch as I crumble with them
back into nothingness, from which I came